'Truths'

There are things in life we can't control.

The people we meet, the roll of a dice, the questions in a paper,

But there are ways to make the best of that which is most unexpected.

Go hard. Run until you collapse, then run some more. Cry until you can't breathe but then don't stop, crying helps us more than we realise. Laugh at the little things, laugh at things that go wrong. There is always something positive to take from our mistakes and downfalls. Express your emotions, whether it be to yourself in a journal, to your friends via facebook, or through long chats to the people you love in the wee hours of the morning.

Do your utmost to avoid bottling everything up. Sometimes we hide things, to avoid admitting the truth and crumbling, to avoid damaging pride or friendship. Cracking a bottle open, may help to distract you for a short while, let you have some fun, but cracking open your bottle of emotions may be that next step, the one thing you need to do to move forward.

Grief is a blessing. So often we see our emotions as a burden, but we were given the ability to feel. All the bad stuff, albeit difficult and scary, makes all the good shine that much brighter. Ther is no light without shadow, no happiness without risk. So take a risk, don't aim for that life of darkness.

There is no weakness in being afraid, in wanting to be safe. There is no shame in doubting the faint light at the end of the tunnel, it happens to the biggest and bravest of us. Every now and then we need to take a step back, look at out lives and acknowledge the great aspects, consider the not so great.

Sometimes I feel broken, like part of me is missing, gone, and that loss is my fault. Sometimes I feel that loss cannot possibly be replaced, never found. Despite the fact that healing may be possible, I see the scar as inevitable. Separating these thoughts from the great is beyond difficult, but some days I can do it, and these days are getting closer together.

I am beautiful and someone will fall in love with me when the time is right.
I am young, learning about myself and the world around me, ever ready to grow.
I am intelligent, able to do whatever I choose in this life.
I am blessed with family and friends worth more than any materialistic fortune.
I am broken and in pain.
But I can heal.
And I am free.


5.3.12 ~ The Broken