"Ugly Truths"

I was jealous of you.
Your freedom. Your parties. Your drinking.
Your fun.
I was jealous of your carefree life.
The fact you could do what you wanted,
When you wanted, no
Consequences. No
Study.
I was jealous of you
Spending time with your friends, mucking around.
Guilt free fun.
I was green, you were
Yellow happy, black lies.
Love lust truth deceit,
You had what you desired.
          I was trapped.
I was jealous of you as you
Swam with sharks and slept with the dog,
Not a worry,
A distant thought was I if any
And still, I was so jealous of you.
I was working on our future.
I believed that you would wait, that you
Loved.
Now I stand alone as the truth is revealed.
Fate travels, closer, closer.
I was jealous of you.
I was wrong.
I am 97.75.
You are 0,
Nothing.


27.12.11/29.12.11 ~ The Broken