At first I almost didn't even care because I loved you so much and couldn't imagine not having you in my life, but then I realised a few things.
I deserve to be with someone that loves only me, and understands and respects my lifestyle and choices. I deserve a man that will always tell me the truth, respect me when I say no and celebrate with me when I succeed. Even if I succeed at something he doesn't value or understand, he should be happy for me, proud of me. At the end of the day, he should be content to lie and hold me all night, sex or no, squeeze me when I cry and smile back at me when I'm happy.
You were all that for me and more, but somewhere along the line you changed.
The person I fell in love with isn't there anymore.
It's hard, so hard, and there are days where I miss you so much I can't do anything but cry. And I feel stupid and wonder what I did, but I've got to remember that you're the idiot that ruined what we had and threw me away. You don't deserve me and I will be better off without you.
One day I will find a boy who knows I'm not perfect, but it won't matter because I will be perfect for him.
Until I find him, I'll focus on myself, have fun, won't let anyone hold me back.
Words are easy.
9.2.12 - The Broken
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