"Highschool Sweetheart, Virginity Stripper"

It doesn't take long to fall in like.
Blushing, looking down
Shy, soft kisses
                  Reluctance and excitement.
Anticipation.
Together
Wondering - should I? Shouldn't I?
And deciding                        "I should"

It doesn't take long to fall in love.
Smiling at phone vibrations labelled with their name.
Phone calls laughter questions answers
Similarities differences.
Ying and yang.
Soulmates and sex.
And it's fun. And you're so happy. And you
Can't believe
That finally someone loves you with everything
They've got
And you're swept away,
Cloud 9 and sweet dreams.

It doesn't take long to depend.
Creatures of habit, we fall into
A trifecta of discomfort
When, not if,
The one who is always there, your
Safe house, safety net,
Peace of mind happiness
Original lover
Friend
Departs.
Sadness anger grief.

It doesn't take long to fall and break
No explanation.
Lies tears anger confusion disarray
                                   Dispair.
Unanswered questions
What did you do?
They cheat, but it's your fault.
Your passion committment drive potential
Ambition,
Too much intimidating overwhelming.


It doesn't take long for once happy
Memories
To be painful reminders of
A 'man' who
Lacks the male sex organ.

It doesn't take long to be crushed,
Flattened under the foot of heart break,
Rejection
But the tunnel to the future is long.
Flashes of light reminders that there will be an
End to the pain,
Fresh happiness,
Untainted love.
Before, now, the tunnel is full of mud and rats,
Sparks of light are few in the
Impenetrable darkness
But they exist.

It takes a long time to become the
Fittest and strongest you've ever been.
Injury takes moments,
Lasts indefinitely,
Leaves scars.
Healing seems questionable,
Apparently inevitable, there are doubts.
The injury will stay with you forever despite faded scars
You'll remember.
Tiny, insignificant seconds will trigger tears.

It doesn't take long to give in, drown yourself,
Remind yourself of what you did
                               Even though you were right
And they were wrong,
You'll remember that it's your fault.

It takes a long time to rebuild,
Recover.
Hope and cry and hope and cry and hope and cry.

You can grow flowers from where dirt used to be,
But it takes a long time for sprouts to appear.


30.1.12 ~ The Broken